Working out with a personal trainer is an intimate thing to do. There is a lot of touching in order to discipline the customer’s body and correct mistakes on their part. And on my part, there is a lot of whining, sometimes begging. It is not a pretty thing to watch, I assure you. So when I chose my introduction PT a few years back, I chose someone that I could be ugly with. And that person is not the Adonis of they gym. But apparently, that is just me.

The other gays at my gym all choose one particular straight Adonis perfection with full-sleeve tattoos and a girlfriend who works out at the same gym. Is it the same old self-hatred going? Or the fantasy of seducing the ultimate trophy? Or do people find motivation to work out harder with an unreachable goal next to you?